Letter 4

I must agree with what was being discussed about prayer in this fourth letter. When C.S. Lewis was talking about the fact that sometimes what the patient calls "GOD" is located on a bedroom corner or inside the patients head. What I took from this was that we pray to an object that God himself made and not who made us. I guess we sometimes tend to forget the meaning of prayer and I feel that sometimes we ask for unrealistic things through prayer, rather than focusing on the spirituality of it and its meaning. I believe that we all get through our prayers in our own individual way and I do not know what the correct way to pray is, but I know that I am comfortable with my prayers. At this point of my life I have learned that I shouldn't get close to "GOD" through a prayer only when I want to ask for something. I have learned to concentrate and somehow talk to God. When I was young I was taught to get on my knees and put my hands together. When I was a kid I really didn't ask for anything specific in my prayers, my mom would have me recite "Our Heavenly Father" and another prayer, I don't recall its name but it was to a Gurdian Angel. Now I realize how important it is that when you pray you concentrate and give your full attention to God.

C.S.Lewis 1-3

While reading The Screwtape Letters I had to constantly go back and read again. I was a bit confused, and if i am wrong in my understanding of the letters, please correct me. I was able to sense that the uncle who was writing the letters was evil and was representing a demonic force and that the patient represents the people that believe in God. I found very true what he had to say about disappointment. Disappointment is something that I have found difficult to deal with throughout life, little by little I have learned how to cope with it. Yet, when I was reading that, I realized how destructive disappointment can be and how easy it can be for an evil person, or satan himself could take advantage of such situations in order to gain something from it. The last letter encouraged me to think about many things. I realized how much i can manage to complain about my mother without realizing how much I love her. There is something that happened earlier today that I would like to share. Lately, my mother and i have not been on the best terms ever, after reading this last letter I felt a need to apologize for judging her. Once I was done talking, my mother said that she accepted my apology but then began to tell me everything that i do that bothers her, I thought it was funny. She said that she felt like I didn't love her anymore and that she felt used by both my sister and I, I felt awful after this, and I decided that I never want to turn into what that mother and son in the last letter turned into.